Friday, January 29, 2010

Sometimes I really wonder if I am the master of my fate.

life can be a burden, but dun ever give up

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Today, I saw the best and worst side of our volleyball team. A captain who actually cries for someone who isn't even part of the team, and a guy who walks around with crutches as if he's been shot in the foot although it's jsut a sprain.

life can be a burden, but dun ever give up

Friday, December 11, 2009

And so u19 ended. Haha to think about it, it has been a rather surreal experience. The plan to participate in the comp was hatched a few months back. And this dream was nearly broken when within a few days from the deadline of registration, it was clear that most of the high school ppl were not participating in the comp. Both me and zj decided then on the fateful day at jurong east library while we were mugging for As to form this very team. Many thanks to coach for willing to guide us without charge. And I will forever be amazed by the sheer magnitude of my father's generosity.

In truth, it has always been my wish to play with you guys as one team, haha after all we have grown up together as a team. Right from the start, we were pitted against some of the strongest teams in our age group. It was no surprise that we were the underdogs for every match. But playing with you guys was really such a joy. I am just proud we showed such tenacity to come back time after time from games when we were trailing by 8-9 points. Haha, I have waited for nearly 6 years to have the experience to play every match with my very own dream team.

Forming my very own dream team was simple. Dream team may not be the apt term to use in this case as my "dream team" is not made up of legions of stars and galacticos or whatever terms you may call them. Instead, it comprises sole of a group of teammates who I deeply appreciate and love. I guess what we lack in skill, we made that up with our will. Thank you everyone in the team for giving their best. Often, we were missing several key players and sec 3s had to step in and plug the gaps. They really stood tall and performed excellently.

In retrospect, I felt that we did really well though there are areas we should improve on. Although our full squad was never present, we managed to put up gutsy performances and most importantly, we never gave up on each other.

My only regret would be that we never got wincoln to play for our team. Haha. I am just glad that I got to play every single match. Lol no more pre match jitters.

It's late. A million thanks to everyone who made this dream possible. Though it was achieved late, but better late than never. I really cherished every single minute that we played together.

life can be a burden, but dun ever give up

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Why is it that my priorities are often questioned. Is it really wrong to begin with. Ultimately it is just a matter of different perspectives and often different desires.

life can be a burden, but dun ever give up

Thursday, November 19, 2009

I have not blog for quite a long time. Haha. It just that whenever I feel like blogging, words fail me. So six years and perhaps the best time I had in my life is nearly over. I have one slight regret though that these six years have to be concluded with the a levels which I took with no confidence to speak off. At the end of the day, it is more of a question whether one can scale the insurmountable mental barrier rather than a question of ability.

This year had really been a time of disappointments, pain, loss and joy. I have rekindled old friendships and found new ones as well. Sorry, it's one in the morning and I am being incoherent here. Still remembered my first steps into the school, how long we took to learn the school song, how stupid we thought about singing especially during assembly, haha but we gradually grew to love singing those same old songs we thought were dumb. Volleyball haha how we trained and turned into such a tightly knitted team. To be frank, what I am most grateful about would be the friendships I forged over these six years, growing up together, being stupid together, studying together. I use to have this silly habit of counting down the number of years I had left in hwachong after the end of each year since sec 1, to think that I have always thought that the notion of graduating is so distant. Now that we have nearly reached the point of divergence as we stand before the new chapter of our life. What next?

It's really quite right after midnight. I have always enjoyed this period of time when I am all alone, reflecting about my life and the past, brooding over my future which seems so hazy. I feel rather down whenever the realisation that we are on the brink of adulthood hits me. The notion of bearing the weight of expectations is just....well...and the very thought that my teenage years would soon be a distant relic of the past.....I guess I should not cling too much for the past..

life can be a burden, but dun ever give up

Thursday, October 01, 2009

After all that had happened, I feel utterly helpless.

life can be a burden, but dun ever give up

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Haha damn long since I last blogged. Its not my intention not to, its just that everytime i try to create a post... I really run out of things to say. I am suppose to be mugging for econs now, but i guess a break would do me some good.

I will not attempt kid myself now. I am intimidated by As. I am afraid the burden of failure will be too great to bear.

I am sad. School has ended, and with it all the memories I really treasure. To be frank, I guess most of the memories come from high school. Since jc, I have never been able to derive as much joy and happiness. To me, Jc marks the start of the steady decline of most of my treasured friendships. I guess things will never be the same as before. To my highschool teammates, I am glad most of you still joined volleyball although I believed you all would have known that we faced overwhelming odds in making the team. Lets put it this way, we joined because we wanted to enjoy each other's company. Haha. I just feel sad that at the end of the day, many of you have commitments that you all needed to see to, and its just a pity we couldn't be around each other for the later part of the year.

Haha speaking of commitments, I feel old and all of you would know why. I am lucky to have someone to age with tho.

Almost six years before our paths fully diverge. I wonder if anyone even remembered the first time we met. Our first training session.

Really miss the times when it was just boys fun sun volleyball