Friday, March 30, 2007
Life is full of surprises I should say..especially the ones that end with a rather bitter note.
The human nature is fluid and ever changing, this I accept.... However, how could I hide the disappointment and bitterness when someone did something I did not even contemplate she/he would do? I was staring at stark hypocrisy and insults right into the face and I truly didnt know what to do except to laugh it off as some juvenile stuff. Oh yes, it was certainly easy to laugh it off, but it was hell trying to dismiss this macabre notion that i had just seen the somber hues of the dark nature of humans from my mind.
Good god, what will next yr be like. Some horrid year that is characterised by malice, perhaps.
Oh damn the unhappy times, I guess its just fair for me to have a taste of such mild melancholy after the entirely happy times I have had all these years while in hci. So should I say a word of thanks to you all for letting me "indulge" in reminiscence as I have seemed to have forgotten what it feels like to be oh-so-depressed.
By the way, I had a wonderful day of volleyball and soccer today with my teammates and I am glad for that. Glad because I had the company of friends that derive joy from fun and not from being absolutely critical, not to mention hypocrisy. Whew, seems like the forgetting part would not be that hard after all.
So much for the first impression I held, what a facade it was and a fool I am.
life can be a burden, but dun ever give up