Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Just twenty seconds were needed to crush the false sense of security I had been desperately holding on to. I crashed back to ground zero. The twenty seconds set me thinking...pondering...to yield or not to. Honestly, I was absolutely devastated and gutted, never had i felt like that ever before, not even during pri 6 when i did not attain the 4a* in PSLE. To put in so much effort and fall. My heart tells me to stand up and fight, but I remain vastly unsure, uncertain of what the future hold for me. Should I work for a lost cause or rather give it up all together. Shit, stop my mind from circulating such negative thoughts. I will, I must, give everything I have, then I know at least I have tried, though it wouldnt lessen the weight of disappointment. Triumph with 100% effort and leave with no regrets. After all, only the strong survive.
Sorry for whining, but I just cant help it.
life can be a burden, but dun ever give up