Thursday, April 10, 2008
Yo ppl ignore the latest post, i AM SERIOUSLY POSITIVE ABOUT MY GRP. haha. But I am just tired, darn tired, trainings, self trainings, schoolwork, its so hard to juggle all three at one go. You must give up one to excel in the other, I have not made up my mind so right now they are like taking toil on my body, physically and mentally, many times when I reach home so bloody late, I will just lie down on the floor and doze off, too exhausted to do anything else. I hope I have sufficient ability to pull through this severe mental and physical fatigue. Sometimes its such a torture..The last thing I need is the constant blacklisting by various subject teachers and the constant complains that I am lazy and sloppy when I have shown them my completed tutorials. It just adds to my disillushionment for schoolwork, and sometimes it just deflates me so much. Occasionally, I earnestly hope to escape from the accumulative pressure and weight of my life. The only things I look forward in school are some of my classmates and trainings with my teammates, they provide such a relief to my harsh school life and illuminate my otherwise depressing day. Maybe these temporary escapades are just what I really need, to recuperate, and to rekindle the fire in me. I will pull through, I know I will.
life can be a burden, but dun ever give up