Sunday, December 28, 2008
Christmas for the past few years has been a special fixture in my life. It is the day when my friends come together, have a good time talking and just have fun together. But this year, I dint exactly long for christmas to come as I would normally do, rather I did not want it to arrive so quickly, not that I have come to detest the company of my friends. Its just the fact that I am going to be eighteen soon keeps pounding in my head. As I edge to adulthood, I gradually grew aware of the complexities of life, the other side of life that is not as pretty. I detest the day when I have to assume the responsibilities of being an adult. When I was still a kid, it was easy to dream, to have big ambitions, but as I grew older, I found my dreams increasingly constrained by material demands and my ability. I have barely stepped into adulthood, and yet I have come to hate it, the days when my cerulean eyes sparkle with a special innocence is long gone, replaced by one that is weary and dreadful of the incoming avalanche of worries that adulthood brings about. I dread the day when my friends part ways and go on with their own life and their ambitions. I have grown to cherish every occasion and time that we spend together. I guess the only consolation is that I really enjoyed my teenage years tremendously, it was this period when I really had the time of my life, I dun regret not spending more time mugging for better results, good results may give me a moment of happiness but it can never translate into the joy I had with all my friends. Then again A levels is looming ahead, I guess its time I start slogging my guts out in the following year. Its a real pity though
Anyway Christmas was really good this year, had fun and everything. Thanks to everyone who made my year. As our teenage years slip away from us, I really think its time for everyone to just cherish their teenage years and learn to love every moment even the bad ones and the angry ones when everyone turn incarnadine with anger. All the best for the following year.
I think this new year will be a blast as usual.
life can be a burden, but dun ever give up