Thursday, November 19, 2009
I have not blog for quite a long time. Haha. It just that whenever I feel like blogging, words fail me. So six years and perhaps the best time I had in my life is nearly over. I have one slight regret though that these six years have to be concluded with the a levels which I took with no confidence to speak off. At the end of the day, it is more of a question whether one can scale the insurmountable mental barrier rather than a question of ability.
This year had really been a time of disappointments, pain, loss and joy. I have rekindled old friendships and found new ones as well. Sorry, it's one in the morning and I am being incoherent here. Still remembered my first steps into the school, how long we took to learn the school song, how stupid we thought about singing especially during assembly, haha but we gradually grew to love singing those same old songs we thought were dumb. Volleyball haha how we trained and turned into such a tightly knitted team. To be frank, what I am most grateful about would be the friendships I forged over these six years, growing up together, being stupid together, studying together. I use to have this silly habit of counting down the number of years I had left in hwachong after the end of each year since sec 1, to think that I have always thought that the notion of graduating is so distant. Now that we have nearly reached the point of divergence as we stand before the new chapter of our life. What next?
It's really quite right after midnight. I have always enjoyed this period of time when I am all alone, reflecting about my life and the past, brooding over my future which seems so hazy. I feel rather down whenever the realisation that we are on the brink of adulthood hits me. The notion of bearing the weight of expectations is just....well...and the very thought that my teenage years would soon be a distant relic of the past.....I guess I should not cling too much for the past..
life can be a burden, but dun ever give up